It has been about six months since I've blogged. I dont think I have any real readership, but alas this is more like a public diary so its mostly for me.
So- Why have I not written? Well I have a problem with privacy and I wish I could post and post but I keep on thinking that something that I write my haunt me in the future.. weird.
Well.
On January 28 at 4:13 my son was born. It was via c-section. He is perfectly healthy.
I have to say that I delt with a lot of sadness over having a c section. I wanted a completely natural birth, no drugs of any sort. The OB felt that he might be too big to deliver and a C section was scheduled.
I felt:
GUILT
ANGER
SADNESS
CHEATED
I also felt a lack of conection with my child. These feelings subsided within two weeks.
When my Son was One month old- I fell and broke my ankle.
It has been very challenging and painful. I could not be the full mother I want to be for my son.
I am now in a walking cast and Thank God can care for him more.
My only regret that instead of enjoying my time with him I have been home recovering from the C section and the broken ankle.
In the end I am happy that I have had the support of my wonderful husband, my whole family and my good friend, K.
All in all I am okay and am going back to work soon.
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Celeste
