A Child Is Born

It has been about six months since I've blogged. I dont think I have any real readership, but alas this is more like a public diary so its mostly for me.

So- Why have I not written? Well I have a problem with privacy and I wish I could post and post but I keep on thinking that something that I write my haunt me in the future.. weird.

Well.

On January 28 at 4:13 my son was born. It was via c-section. He is perfectly healthy.

I have to say that I delt with a lot of sadness over having a c section. I wanted a completely natural birth, no drugs of any sort. The OB felt that he might be too big to deliver and a C section was scheduled.

I felt:

GUILT

ANGER

SADNESS

CHEATED

I also felt a lack of conection with my child. These feelings subsided within two weeks.

When my Son was One month old- I fell and broke my ankle.

It has been very challenging and painful. I could not be the full mother I want to be for my son.

I am now in a walking cast and Thank God can care for him more.

My only regret that instead of enjoying my time with him I have been home recovering from the C section and the broken ankle.

In the end I am happy that I have had the support of my wonderful husband, my whole family and my good friend, K.

All in all I am okay and am going back to work soon.

")

Celeste

Wedding...

Well it has a been a long time since I've written. I want

to say its because I have been busy, which IS True, but its mostly me just not feeling up to it! AHhhh not too much

discipline here! Well I married my beautiful Rabbit Rudy on October 9,2010. It has been absolutely crazy and people who get married more than once and have the Party are CRAZY!!! Planning Planning, tears and all but everything went well.. NO PROBLEMS at all! The only issue was that we started late, but not because the Bride was late.. NOPE I was in the car for 40 mins, we were waiting for my beautiful Grandma that due to her disability took a while to get to the ceremony.
The feed back has been great. Everyone Loved the FOOD, the Music and ofcourse the OPEN bar with everything you may

want to drink! I

did not dance too much, I felt the weight of my baby boy and did not want to get too tired. I had fun watching everyone enjoy themselves.

The ceremony was wonderful, my sister and bridesmaids the grooms men were perfect. I am happy! I really am! I am now Mrs. Aura Vanessa Abreu!

Four Months Pregnant!

I have reached about 18 weeks which makes over 4 months Pregnant! Wow. I feel that I sometimes show but sometimes I think its just my normal belly that I have! (being an overweight mommy to be!)

I find that a lot of people, books website suggest taking pictures of your "growing" belly and suggest other body related stuff to track you "changes" SIGH... this is for women who start off with a flat belly, which ofcourse many of us, even those who are not FAT do not have!

I hope to start speaking about things that relate to pregnant woman who are big, fat and different from that woman I see in most books and websites. Even the black and white outlines are of women whose bodies most of us cant relate to. Its not a matter of looking good or even wishing I was like that. NOT at all. I want it to be more like me, round in the middle from the begining! :)

Oh well. The sonogram tech and the Doctor say my baby is a boy, but he was giving them a hard time, within the next month though he should be able to show us for sure.

Wish us luck!

Celeste!

Week 16

I will be 16 weeks pregnant this Friday and so far its been okay. I have thankfully not gained any weight. In fact I lost over 10lbs. I have no real cravings and am eating far less than I did before.

In all the baby seems to be fine but man.. no one told me how painful pregnancy would be. If I sneeze too much or move just so.. bam! Hell of a pain on my sides..

On a separate note I decided to stop following a practicular blogger. I found this person interesting but in the end I got tired always reading "poor me" entries. I thought it would be interesting to learn about someone so different but really this person is extremely sensitive to any comments contrary to what she writes but has no problem complaining about everyone in her life. I understand her condition for the most part, but come on! Not everyone sucks! So its that person's blog and everyone can write what they want. So in the end I stopped trying to make my self be accepting and have moved on...

okay.


On to next time!


Celeste!

Well this was unexpected!

We work up on Sunday morning to head to the park so that bunny may play baseball and I would get to walk with the dog when we saw this:

My Bunny's pick up is the one of the right (The dodge) The police determined that one of my ghetto neighbors was speeding in the neighborhood, hit the pick up on the left which slammed into my bunnies, pushing BOTH trucks aboutr 4 feet the right.

DE MADRE...

So yeah... did I mention that the truck has a $500 deductable? SHIT!


Oh well!

Celeste!

I said YES to the dress!!!

Today I went dress shopping with my mom and sister. I had made an appointment with David's Bridal with the Idea that I would try on dresses, have them not fit and then go to a seamstress with little hope..


I am happy to say that I found a beautiful dress that fits my body and will fit the growing baby to make things better, it was not too expensive!! yay!

It is def a traditional dress which I thought I would never buy but I think I look nice in it!


I also go my bride's maid dresses at a steal and I am happy that the girls wont have to pay that much for them.

Now its the cake and decorations.

WISH ME LUCK!


CELESTE!

Past the "DAnger ZOnE"!

Today I make 12 Weeks and end my First Trimester.

This is when I am supposed to shout from the roof tops and announce my pregnancy to everyone.

Well lots of people know, but I have not made a facebook announcement or anything.

Well being 12 weeks is a milestone because now, miscarriage is low and the baby will GROW GROW GROW.

I have an appointment on Monday where they will look at the baby's neck with a superpowerful sonogram and tell me the "statistical probability of him having a developmental disease."

As someone who works in insurance with all populations (including pre natal care) I believe this test in NOT MEDICALLY NECESSARY..

I mean its not even a sure fire way to know ANYTHING... who came up with this shit.. and its now a routine exam for everyone.. bULL..

Well I am going in just to get a chance to see my baby's heart beat but really I dont want to be scared of the results..

so wish me luck !


CELESTE!